How many times during our various struggles do we say “I’m giving it to God!” as we throw our hands up? Hundreds. I have said, typed and thought those words over and over and over the past few years but have I ever really given it to God? Nope. Not once. Not until recently. I have wanted to give it to God but instead I have worried, stressed myself into full blown panic attacks, cried, begged, pleaded, googled myself to death and just plan NOT given it to God. Before I started this IVF cycle I can truly say I have finally let go of the infertility reigns. As a result, this cycle feels so much different. I feel at peace. Things haven’t exactly been smooth this cycle but I am not panicking and I am not crying. I KNOW God has a plan. I know his plan is THE plan and it is better than anything I could have ever imagined. I know that in time, I will understand why we have gone through this. Everything will reveal itself when God sees fit. And for once I believe that 100%. If this doesn’t work we will seek adoption. My heart has always been open to adoption and if that is God’s plan, then we are both ready to start on that journey. I am not admitting failure yet, I want more than anything for this to work. I just am at peace with any outcome because I know in the end it will be perfect and we will have our family.
I know we are all in different stages of this horrible disease but if you haven’t yet, or you’ve tried and failed… take a deep breath & give it to God. Find the peace in knowing He knows our path and He is walking it with us. He will not abandon us.
love love love,
S
Faith in Infertility 
I’m glad that you are moving forward with another IVF cycle and, most importantly, that you are at peace and fully trusting God. I hope that when we get started again next month, I have that same peace and trust. Wishing you all the best!!
Thank you! Finding this peace has really changed my entire life. I will be thinking about & praying for you as you start your next FET cycle!! Good luck!! ❤
I loved this post so much. Praying for you right now hun! xo
Thank you love! & Thank you for always blogging from your heart, you have been such an inspiration to me since I started blogging! ❤
Thank you for such a great post. I did exactly what you said a few months ago and we decided to move forward with Adoption 🙂 I will be praying for you!
Adoption is an amazing thing. Both my younger siblings are adopted and it changed my life. Good luck to you, I will be praying that everything goes smoothly!
Thank you so much. I got an email today saying they still have a few more things to do on their end before our study so we are patiently waiting.